The next few days passed calmy in the hospital. Jesse was doing a little bit better but he was still in coma. His heartbeat was warking a little faster. Doctors beliave that a miracle was happening and Jesse will wake up in a week if he conitnue trying. He might hurt his head really bad but is recovering very fast because of his young age. Now the only thing they're waiting is Jesse to wake up from the coma.
Pauline on the other hand was working hard and she got paied for the first time in her life. But this didn't change anything to how she was feelling. She didn't know if someday will be able to forgive herself of what she did. She knew that they guys were suporting her but this wasn't enough. She didn't want to think if Jesse's didn't wake up what will happend. She wasn't sure if she could even look into Jon's eyes again.
She've done anything that was running from her hand. She doesn't really care about herself at this point. Sometimes she wished not to wake up what she had faint. She didn't have to deal with this pain.
Pauline has her day off. She went early in the morning in the hospital first of all. She was standing there looking over the glass Jesse. Jon had infomed her he was doing better than the other days. She opened the door and closed it behind her. She took the chair and sit beside him. Tears filled her eyes again. She hads promised to herself not to cry but she couldn't keep that promise. Jesse was the one who was telling her she was stronger than him but this was her weak spot.
She took his hand into hers. "Oh Jess! This is all my fault....." she said while she was crying. Her hot tears dropped to Jesse's hand. She looked up to his pale face. His eyes closed. His brown hair covered from a bandage. "I could never forgive myself for that! It was my fault to go out with Zack! It was my fault to react like that! It was my fault to talk to you like that after your messages! It was my fault not to let you explain! It is my fault that you're here! It's all my fault!" she said and start crying even more. His hand was between hers and her head now was in her arms.
An alarm start buzzing. Pauline sceared lifted her head. She looked at the monitor of his heartbeat. There was a horizontal like whick is flashing. Two nurses came running and then a doctor came too. They asked Pauline to leave the room. They closed the door in front of Pauline. They drew the curtains of the room. Pauline sut in the chair. Her head was in her hands. The tears never leaving her eyes. She knew that this wasn't good. What if Jesse never wake up? What if he died in front of her? What if she was the last person who spoked to him?
All these questions were torturing her mind. Their time they spend together passed like a movie in front of her eyes. She couldn't loose him now! "NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!" she yelled and got to her knees. Her hands were covering her face. Jon heard her screaming and got running where she was. "Pauline are you ok?" he asked and hepled her get up. With the speed of the light Pauline hugged Jon with all the power she had. She almost caught his breath. Pauline was still crying. "Pauline tell me what happend!" Jon asked her calmy. "I was there with Jesse and suddenly an alarm start buzzing. His heartbeat went to zero! A docrtor came and throught me out of the room! I'm so sceared!" Pauline said very very fast and hugged again Jon. He didn't get a word. She was always talking too fast when she's sceared. "Pauline i want you to keep calm and tell me one more time what happend!" his blue eyes met her brown which were red from crying. Pauline swallowed. "I was with Jesse when an alarm start buzzing and his heartbeat went to zero. Then a doctor came and asked me to leave the room!" Jon couldn't believe what his ears had heard right now. He understanbd how Pauline was feeling and pulled her in his arms. "It's Pauline! It's over now!" he said and hugged her close.
A several minutes later the doctor came out and told Jon he was very lucky that they came in no time overwise he would defently passed out. Jon was reliefed when he heard that but Pauline wasn't. She thought that this was sight to leave them alone and that was she was going to do.
For the next few days Pauline was tying to avoid them. She knew that this wasn't easy but she must try it. While everyone could feel her absence they thought that she just wanted to rest for a little while. They were adults, this thought wasn't even close to what was happening. But Ava got from the first time.
She couldn't blame her. If she was in her shoes will propably thinking and acting in the same way. Her heart was breaking too watching Jesse in a hospital room. In some way could understand how this must be feel like. Jon told her how Pauline did when he came in the hospital. She couldn't hide how sad this made her feel for both Pauline and Jesse. She must have a talk with her as soon as possible.
Ava was waiting outside of Pauline's house over an hour ago. She knew that some time she'll go out but she didn't know when. She singed and looked up to the sun that it was about to say goodbye and the sky will welcome the moon. She check one more time her phone the hour was 20.37pm. She got bored of waiting and she decided to left. She walked a few steps when she heard the door of the Timson house to open. She turned and saw Pauline walking on the other side of the road. "Hey Pauline wait!" she yelled and start running to her side.
Pauline as she heard yelling her name and saw Ava caming froze. She knew this moment will come but she wasn't ready. So she start running too to avoid Ava. Ava saw her that she was running too and she raised her speed. Ava knew that Pauline was an athlet and she was running very fast but she's a Sambora and she never give up.
Pauline continue running and looked back to Ava who doesn't give up. A feet away Pauline got out of breath so was Ava. When their breaths were back to normal Ava said "What the fuck you think you're doing?" "I'm noy doing anything!" Pauline said and tried to walk away but Ava's hand stopped her. "Why are you avoiding us?" "I'm not avoiding anyone!" Pauline said and Ava let her hand free. "That's bullshit Pauline you know that!" Pauline didn't answer. "Tell me have we done something wrong? Something that you don't like?" "No." "So, why are you fucking avoiding us?" Pauline looked to Ava's blue eyes, she was waiting an answer. Pauline signed. "Look Ava is better that way! It's better to stay away from you and from all." Pauline said and walked a few steps. Ava was standing there trying to solve her puzzle. "Pauline wait!" she said and walked next to her. "Why?" she asked with a voise full of pain. "Don't you get it Ava? I hurt the people i love! First is Jesse and because i don't you to be the next of my list i'll stay away from you!" "Pauline what are you talking about? If weren't you they couldn't find a blood donor! Have you ever thought of that?" "This is not that point! Jesse almost died in front of my eyes!" she paused to signed and she continue "Look, if you think about it is better for all of us!" "No, is not! Now stop that bullshit, please!" "Ava is not bullshit, is the truth and you have accept it! I already did, is your turn now!" "You're wrong Pauline! We all love you and we don't want to loosed because of a fucking mistake...." "A fucking mistake that might cost Jesse's life! And if Jesse die.... i'll die too!" Pauline said and start walking with quick big steps. "Accidents happend Pauline every single day. We all know that this is not your fault or Jesse's! Is just happend. Jesse used to say that you're stronger than him and he's right.... you're! You're the strongest person i've even met and really is my pleasure that i can call you a friend of mine!" Ava words touched Pauline hard and she stoped as she heard them coming out of Ava's mouth. Pauline slowly turned and saw her with her arms opened. "These open arms will wait for you....." Ava said sweet and she was waiting for her to come. Pauline couldn't say no to that. She came to her side and hugged her. "See the Jovi lyrics always work!" Ava said and laughed. "Smartass!" "Now, let's go to eat i'm hungry!" Ava said lead the way to the center of the small twon where was their favourite pizzeria. "But Ava you're always hungry!" Pauline complained. "I'm a Sambora! How can you forget that?" "Yeah, how can i?" Pauline said and laughed along with Ava.
They spend the night eatting pizza. They both needed this little break. Ava saw Pauline smiling again after a long time. The Pauline she met and knew was back! And she'll do anything keep her like the way it is right now.
Pauline on the other hand was working hard and she got paied for the first time in her life. But this didn't change anything to how she was feelling. She didn't know if someday will be able to forgive herself of what she did. She knew that they guys were suporting her but this wasn't enough. She didn't want to think if Jesse's didn't wake up what will happend. She wasn't sure if she could even look into Jon's eyes again.
She've done anything that was running from her hand. She doesn't really care about herself at this point. Sometimes she wished not to wake up what she had faint. She didn't have to deal with this pain.
Pauline has her day off. She went early in the morning in the hospital first of all. She was standing there looking over the glass Jesse. Jon had infomed her he was doing better than the other days. She opened the door and closed it behind her. She took the chair and sit beside him. Tears filled her eyes again. She hads promised to herself not to cry but she couldn't keep that promise. Jesse was the one who was telling her she was stronger than him but this was her weak spot.
She took his hand into hers. "Oh Jess! This is all my fault....." she said while she was crying. Her hot tears dropped to Jesse's hand. She looked up to his pale face. His eyes closed. His brown hair covered from a bandage. "I could never forgive myself for that! It was my fault to go out with Zack! It was my fault to react like that! It was my fault to talk to you like that after your messages! It was my fault not to let you explain! It is my fault that you're here! It's all my fault!" she said and start crying even more. His hand was between hers and her head now was in her arms.
An alarm start buzzing. Pauline sceared lifted her head. She looked at the monitor of his heartbeat. There was a horizontal like whick is flashing. Two nurses came running and then a doctor came too. They asked Pauline to leave the room. They closed the door in front of Pauline. They drew the curtains of the room. Pauline sut in the chair. Her head was in her hands. The tears never leaving her eyes. She knew that this wasn't good. What if Jesse never wake up? What if he died in front of her? What if she was the last person who spoked to him?
All these questions were torturing her mind. Their time they spend together passed like a movie in front of her eyes. She couldn't loose him now! "NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!" she yelled and got to her knees. Her hands were covering her face. Jon heard her screaming and got running where she was. "Pauline are you ok?" he asked and hepled her get up. With the speed of the light Pauline hugged Jon with all the power she had. She almost caught his breath. Pauline was still crying. "Pauline tell me what happend!" Jon asked her calmy. "I was there with Jesse and suddenly an alarm start buzzing. His heartbeat went to zero! A docrtor came and throught me out of the room! I'm so sceared!" Pauline said very very fast and hugged again Jon. He didn't get a word. She was always talking too fast when she's sceared. "Pauline i want you to keep calm and tell me one more time what happend!" his blue eyes met her brown which were red from crying. Pauline swallowed. "I was with Jesse when an alarm start buzzing and his heartbeat went to zero. Then a doctor came and asked me to leave the room!" Jon couldn't believe what his ears had heard right now. He understanbd how Pauline was feeling and pulled her in his arms. "It's Pauline! It's over now!" he said and hugged her close.
A several minutes later the doctor came out and told Jon he was very lucky that they came in no time overwise he would defently passed out. Jon was reliefed when he heard that but Pauline wasn't. She thought that this was sight to leave them alone and that was she was going to do.
For the next few days Pauline was tying to avoid them. She knew that this wasn't easy but she must try it. While everyone could feel her absence they thought that she just wanted to rest for a little while. They were adults, this thought wasn't even close to what was happening. But Ava got from the first time.
She couldn't blame her. If she was in her shoes will propably thinking and acting in the same way. Her heart was breaking too watching Jesse in a hospital room. In some way could understand how this must be feel like. Jon told her how Pauline did when he came in the hospital. She couldn't hide how sad this made her feel for both Pauline and Jesse. She must have a talk with her as soon as possible.
Ava was waiting outside of Pauline's house over an hour ago. She knew that some time she'll go out but she didn't know when. She singed and looked up to the sun that it was about to say goodbye and the sky will welcome the moon. She check one more time her phone the hour was 20.37pm. She got bored of waiting and she decided to left. She walked a few steps when she heard the door of the Timson house to open. She turned and saw Pauline walking on the other side of the road. "Hey Pauline wait!" she yelled and start running to her side.
Pauline as she heard yelling her name and saw Ava caming froze. She knew this moment will come but she wasn't ready. So she start running too to avoid Ava. Ava saw her that she was running too and she raised her speed. Ava knew that Pauline was an athlet and she was running very fast but she's a Sambora and she never give up.
Pauline continue running and looked back to Ava who doesn't give up. A feet away Pauline got out of breath so was Ava. When their breaths were back to normal Ava said "What the fuck you think you're doing?" "I'm noy doing anything!" Pauline said and tried to walk away but Ava's hand stopped her. "Why are you avoiding us?" "I'm not avoiding anyone!" Pauline said and Ava let her hand free. "That's bullshit Pauline you know that!" Pauline didn't answer. "Tell me have we done something wrong? Something that you don't like?" "No." "So, why are you fucking avoiding us?" Pauline looked to Ava's blue eyes, she was waiting an answer. Pauline signed. "Look Ava is better that way! It's better to stay away from you and from all." Pauline said and walked a few steps. Ava was standing there trying to solve her puzzle. "Pauline wait!" she said and walked next to her. "Why?" she asked with a voise full of pain. "Don't you get it Ava? I hurt the people i love! First is Jesse and because i don't you to be the next of my list i'll stay away from you!" "Pauline what are you talking about? If weren't you they couldn't find a blood donor! Have you ever thought of that?" "This is not that point! Jesse almost died in front of my eyes!" she paused to signed and she continue "Look, if you think about it is better for all of us!" "No, is not! Now stop that bullshit, please!" "Ava is not bullshit, is the truth and you have accept it! I already did, is your turn now!" "You're wrong Pauline! We all love you and we don't want to loosed because of a fucking mistake...." "A fucking mistake that might cost Jesse's life! And if Jesse die.... i'll die too!" Pauline said and start walking with quick big steps. "Accidents happend Pauline every single day. We all know that this is not your fault or Jesse's! Is just happend. Jesse used to say that you're stronger than him and he's right.... you're! You're the strongest person i've even met and really is my pleasure that i can call you a friend of mine!" Ava words touched Pauline hard and she stoped as she heard them coming out of Ava's mouth. Pauline slowly turned and saw her with her arms opened. "These open arms will wait for you....." Ava said sweet and she was waiting for her to come. Pauline couldn't say no to that. She came to her side and hugged her. "See the Jovi lyrics always work!" Ava said and laughed. "Smartass!" "Now, let's go to eat i'm hungry!" Ava said lead the way to the center of the small twon where was their favourite pizzeria. "But Ava you're always hungry!" Pauline complained. "I'm a Sambora! How can you forget that?" "Yeah, how can i?" Pauline said and laughed along with Ava.
They spend the night eatting pizza. They both needed this little break. Ava saw Pauline smiling again after a long time. The Pauline she met and knew was back! And she'll do anything keep her like the way it is right now.
Pauline is in so much pain, my heart aches for her. It's time for her parents to step in and help their daughter.
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